March 2011
1 post
4 tags
February 2011
7 posts
2 tags
the tides are quickly turning
rockstar #lifestyle might dont make it (wasted)
6 tags
baby i got a plan,
(and for once in our lives this has everything to do with real life and nothing to do with a kanye west lyric)
i have an idea… not so much idea because i feel like the word idea entails that it is original, and this idea is not original… none-the-less, it is a child of my brain.
and let me just say, childbirth is long, painful, and full of suck.
i wish i didn’t have to go...
“I am really fucking tired. I am at that last mile of the marathon when your...”
– Lady Gaga Vogue, March 2011
fool me once, shame on you.
fool me twice, shame on you.
fool me three times, shame on me.
oops!
January 2011
17 posts
emotional turmoil
i just wish i had someone to talk to but there is no one because no one can validate the emotions i am going through right now and that is all
edit: lol at my life i wanted to type a lot but, as i do very often, i just decided to say fuck it and save as draft… except i forgot to save it as draft. 00pz!
BLACK SWAN
OH MY FUCK IT LITERALLY JUST STOPPED PLAYING THE CREDITS ARE STILL ROLLING I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH MYSELF RIGHT NOW I JUST OH MY GOD perfection
which one of us is really dumb?
i never understood the party hard mentality that certain people seem to cling to so whole-heartedly. i never got how celebrities could give everything up a la lindsay lohan and just go dabble in drugs and alcohol and everything in between. last night combined with chipotle, my geosciences quiz, the paper i have due, the hw that i dont feel like doing, and the sauce that they put in quesadillas at...
january 15th
i dont even know why i bothered!!!
1 tag
i want to curl into a ball and just cry for the...
but i can’t because i got shit to do and bills to pay.
but it would be nice!
note to self: next time you’re going to take a trip down memory lane, make sure you choose a different route.
confinement
can one really deem themselves as confined if the confining circumstances in question are created, whether arbitrarily or definitely, by oneself?
because i feel so fucking confined right now that its not even funny.
ALSO this post has everything to do with an ad campaign that im working on and nothing to do with my previeous post/my life… although you could probably draw parallels to...
dropping out
to deny someone an education is an injustice.
to deny oneself an education is an even greater injustice.
h0w3v3r, i would love to drop out of college.
that is all!
“When you ask creative people how they did something, they feel a little guilty...”
– Steve Jobs
re:cap
i was about to make this post about the traditional month by month recap of the year i had with kimberlee this past evening when i realized that recap was a re word and it reminded me of re:Generation and E1B and basically made me an emotional mess that wants nothing more in life than to be the next yearbook god like paul ender and brenda and mary kay (who added me on facebook….)
in light...
2010
i honestly feel like the count down tonight is more of a funeral than a celebration. ok yeah me being a drama queen whatever, but it really does feel like im losing something important to me and i really dont want to let go of it.
expand on this later… maybe next year?
December 2010
14 posts
things im trying not to do:
spam facebook/tumblr with details of my shitty day.
i think i’ve told a grand total of 3 people the sad life that i’ve lead for the past 24 hours; if you were one of them, feel special!
i’m also trying not to leave these posts of fragmented sentences and what not…. ok lohan didn’t ween off of coke in a day in rehab (neither did spleesh…) so don’t expect...
all i want in life
nicki minaj, peppermint mocha (dark chocolate is preferred but regular is fine too) iced, and a serial code to adobe cs5 series (at least photoshop if nothing else).
that’s it.
oceanography suqz
i dont cry over grades very often but i was SO close to a fucking A. SO. DAMN. CLOSE.
goodbye usc!
intoxicated mindset > toxic mindset
TOO BAD IM TAKING TYLENOL AND CANT MIX ALC WITH MEDICINE……………..
resolution of the week: get fucked up thursday ^_~
goodnight tumblr world, c u @ 8AM tomorrow for dat final which is about to be hard as fuqqq
toxic mindset
is what i am in right now.
TOXIC fuck i cant even write this post and its taking all of my self control to publish this instead of saving it as a draft because this way i feel like i will have to explain myself eventually.
also finals week is not a good time for your shit.
honestly either my grades can die or i can.
revelations
my dream will forever and always be to work in the music industry/mtv.
hillz~*
Lauren: If you have friendships and you trust them, that’s everything. Who are your friends if you can't trust them? I think that one of the hardest things for me was that you didn’t trust me.
Audrina: I don’t trust anyone, and you’ve known that for so long.
Lauren: It isn’t about trusting people, it's about knowing WHO to trust.
Audrina: I haven’t been happy lately, I've been so torn and so angry and so just almost lost, like I don’t know who I am anymore. I just feel like inside I've lost who I am.
Lauren: But sweetie, you have to understand that there are people that just really want the BEST for YOU.
Audrina: It's almost like I've learned to become my own best friend and I don’t trust anyone, and that’s not healthy, it's bad.
Lauren: I just wish you'd trust me. I promise you; I never want you to be sad.
grey's anatomy.
oh my fucking god shonda rhimes is honestly one of the most amazing human beings on the planet and if i could meet her (which i may very well have the chance to !!!!!!!!!!) i would literally probably break down and cry and grovel at her feet.
that is all.
i am a rapper.
today i wrote and recorded a rap song.
it is called “holler backwards”
it is very. very. good.
btdubs, its not finished yet. We only have 2 verses and a rough recording of the chorus. you already know that ill holla as soon as dat single drops.
HOLLER BACKWERDZ U ALREADY KNO!
em0shunz!
to say the least, im very emotional right now and i feel like a crack addict (whats up spleesh!) that is going through withdrawl because im trying to shy away from my pre-sleep cocktail to calm my nerves.
im just really nervous/stressed over finals ok, no big.
what is the purpose of my blog?
i feel like everything in life needs a purpose, even if the purpose is unfounded. which is to say that even things that you do “just for fun” have the purpose of being done just for fun. yadidi?
that being said, what is the purpose of my tumblr? is it for me to post deep insightful posts, or would it be better served as a place for random notes about life?
it can only be one or the...
tumblr challenges suq.
I really wanted to do a post challenge that would allow me to reflect on what has arguably been/will be the most important and life changing year of my life. All the tumblr challenges out are completely useless in my humble opinion (well half of them are useless for this purpose in specific, and the other half are just useless in general) and I think that I’m going to have to pull an end of...
November 2010
8 posts
save as draft ≠ post
PROBLEMATIC!
i have so much to talk about and i always write posts in my mind and when i come to tumblr i just feel like i am so insignificant in the grand scheme of things and that my post better be fucking perfect before i post it.
its literally taking all of my self control to not save this as a draft.
RESOLUTION: to actually blog.
wild out... webdesign?
there are times when i feel completely lame but also completely assured that i am indulging in the right field and that everything will be ok in the end.
there is no school tomorrow. this means one thing and one thing only to a college student: LETS GET FUCKED UP! forget thirsty thursday, wild out wednesday is in full effect. i already have the addresses to 3 parties, 2 kickbacks, a rave, and a...
i dont need a reality check.
i am fucking shit up royally and im not doing a damn thing about it.
i dont need a reality check. i know im not doing this right. i know that its not going to take me where i need to be. i know im making the same mistakes again.
i know that. thats not what i need to hear.
i dont need a reality check. i need reality.
that and someone to call me everyday and make sure im awake for my...
the squareroot of 69 is 8 somethin but im just...
if i had to pick one phrase to explain my life right now, it would be this.
s0 umm
loko+hookah……. goodnight.
apparently loko+hookah actually means GOOD MORNING aka not sleeping…. lol @ my life.
this is a stark contrast to the post i am soon going to make about the lecture i went to put on my Cornell West. google him.
v for vikram.
convikted:
Remember, remember the fifth of November
Gunpowder, treason and plot.
I see no reason, why the Gunpowder Treason
Should ever be forgot.
Reblogged post from November 5th, 2009. crazy how much can change in a year…
October 2010
14 posts
67 pages
of unread tumblr posts ugh that was exhausting to read through.
you all have so many fucking problems CAN YOU JUST GET OVER THEM ALREADY.
damnit.
“Depend on the rabbit’s foot if you will, but remember it didn’t work...”
– R.E. Shay via Sheila Lin’s facebook status
